Thomas had a small himalayan salt lamp that was the one and only thing that gave him light inside his most hellish earthly hours
He sat with me during our Back2Roots Retreat at Sargood, our first ever adaptive Yoga and Meditation retreat.
His eyes, speckled with the kind of flecks only an oracle of other realms contains, always seeming to behold me and at the same time something far beyond me. I wondered what he could see.
I kneeled next to his wheelchair and he explained gently.
There was a moment in time when everything changed, a tiny seed of suspension in space, where a truck came crashing into his car and severed his cervical spine in two, he told me. In that moment he lost ~
the physicality of his legs and function of his trunk
life as he had known it, in its entirety
Thomas handed me the lamp and reassured me
this gift was for me and him both
once upon a time he lost everything. With this gift, he could be fully
In human connection, things are never as they seem. For the most part, they are far better than we imagine them.
The tendency of the human mind in our current conditioning, is that when we experience something as awkward or uncomfortable, it’s somehow less than ideal. The by-product is that some kind of effort kicks in to alter our state as quickly as possible.
What is our responsibility here on earth? Is it to die only having defined a certain purpose and place ~ having planted this unique, blueprint of body vessel, into the perfect pocket of soil to fertilise its birthright blooming?
What if our responsibility implies our capacity to listen and co-create with any moment with the full faculties of our awareness? What if our highest duty is simply to be present in the art of Being, totally here and now, expanding our consciousness into the brimming fullness of the moment, fuller than full, wholler than wholesome, to embrace the entire spectrum of what any given moment might contain.
Samadhi, nirvana, enlightenment, Love, self-realisation, orgasm , the full body YES
Yes is an expansion!
But in order to Realise the Yes, we must invite ourselves in equal parts and portions to Realise the No. Just as perfectly combined as
coffee and cacao
and meditation and sex
and tahini and spoons
~ two sides of the same coin.
The word ‘bodymap’ implies an ability to recognise, understand and experience the distinct layers of our own body.
Sometimes we have an accurate sense of our bodymap and move about the world with a certain congruence with life, as if simultaneously moving and being moved with an elegance and sensitivity that is forever growing us into realising our nature as completely whole, unbroken beings.
Other times however, just like a coffee pot filled and refilled over time builds up a thick black lining of deposits, so too do we collect the energetic waste and residue of living.
Binary beings we humans are. Forged and fused with perfectly opposing forces. Which makes loving another human Wholly, quite the business.
To love the dual nature of another human we must be dual in our abilities. That is, we need two sets of eyes ~ one set for seeing what is exposed and another to be the Visionary, two sets of ears ~ one to hear what's spoken and another for the rumbles from the underground, and two kinds of acceptance ~ the acceptance born of flesh and blood, and the numinous sustenance of the soul.